Summer kisses Winter tears!

Nah! Just kidding..its only a song:)but seriously...winter is a paradoxical feeling for me, always has been.On one side theres the AWESOME weather which makes me feel like i could just flyyyyyy..and at the same time my wings feel like theyre being plucked out of my very self!.What i mean is...the chilly breeze hitting against my skin just makes me feel like im in love*ahem**wink* ,every breath of icy wind on my fingertips makes me wanna lace my hands with his.And then at the same time the same wind pricks me so hard,that i wake from my sweet slumber and reluctantly embrace the painful reality!Ouch!What a price to pay for fantasy..*sigh*
But you know whats strange..(or maybe not)is that those everyday little smiles, the little gestures,or even just the minutest of seconds spent together fill me up with warmth enough to supress those evil shivers down my spine that just scream pessimism!!I know theres a way to reach my desire, a way thats built on the path of Hope but theres' an obstacle as always.I m Human!! I walk on a road based on what i think is Right and "right" isnt always "being happy with it".
And Sitting by the window, feeling the hypnotic wind on my face and the breeze caress my hair,counting every little goosebump as a reason to keep on loving, makes me reassure my self that winter is a Season worth its component of negative thoughts because every memory i make in winter gives me motivation to smile even more!
Every time i lose hope in "Waiting",u regain it for me...am i being blind or issit mere cautiousness?Am i just too stupid to realise whether u Are saying exactly what i want to hear???Am i just imagining it all...or do you really make me feel like the world stops spinning every time we're together?*sigh*All i want now is clarity and visibilty from the stagnant fog in my mind!Ahh the paradoixal winter!!You've got to love it!!

Reality Bites!
Little Bruises to throwing tantrums to runny noses to silly games to first crushes,to hating each other (though not for too long)to crappy days out to extremely fun days out to sleepovers we've been through it all together. As every day passed, you guys became more and more like family to me. Not once did i think that maybe i was the only one seeing the brighter side of our friendship.The thing with family is that you always take them for granted cause you know they love you no matter what. And assuming you people were my family did just that.Lessons that have to be learned come in forms that might make you feel that you cant survive any more.
But problems have proven to be cathartic.They are a way for God to show you who really care and how much.While you're out showering someone with all the love you have, you're neglecting people who really want to give you the same concern because they really care.
Learning to overlook the vicious space between friends,the space that comprises of selfishness and negative feelings towards each other became easy.And all that was visible was the long term aspect of it.The many days of our lives that we had spent together and no one else but us could laugh at those jokes cause they were within what i thought was family.But some people learn to push people away, however close,because of repeated actions that hurt them till they get so distant that it just doesnt matter anymore.Sometimes there's no reaso nbehind why people drift apart.They say life's like that.And thats how the rift forms.And stays that way.
But there's always hope. If only everyone co-operates and if you want it . No its not silly togive people you love a chance, over and over again.But then if udont love them at all, you jsut cant give them chances.Today taught me to care unconditionally , no matter what, and thank you God even for today, probably the most dejecting moment in my life, but if it wasnt for today..life wud have been the same. The choice is either to let go completely or care even more and i chose to care for you'll forever.

DEPTH

Have you ever been in a situation where you've been told "you take little things too seriously.lighten up!" ??i was just thinking..( i do that a LOT,thinking i mean)soemthings do need to be taken seriously. dont you think? i think every relationship needs Depth!
Depth --- emotional profundity .could also equal complexity in a relationship..but the point here is...not making relationships more complex...its about giving them a little more weightage than we usually do.Only then can we distinguish between a regular friend and a True frend.That doesnt mean, go about throwing a fuss when a frend calls you a glutton or sumthin!
A relationship needs to be given importance and value , even formal relationships need a certain amount of value.Think about it.If you havea best friend...when did u realise that the person was ure best friend? Was it "just cos we've been friends throughout" or " s/he is the only one who puts up with me" ? No, we realised that when we gave it a thought, rite? Even that fragment of a minute started a train of thoughts and emotions and bore fruit.If we jsut put in a little time for everyone who means something to us there;d be more contentment for what we have already!
Time and Time again, i see people fighting with each other, and breaking off a treasured relationship over somethin maybe as silly as "u dint smile at me today" Gosh what is this comming to? Never forget the times ( or maybe even one time) that that person made "Special" seem real enough to you.That emotion was a result of soem determination and that person decided that YOU were worthy of that feeling.
So the next time you're upset with someone, think about it or talk it out if your the type. Cause really if every relationship is a deep special bond, the once in a while "special moments" may be more frequent than u can imagine =)