messing with my blogg

Im not reallly here to write...but thot id say HELLLOOO...my boards are around the corner anddd i seem to have found a LOT OF NEWfound interests,,,,!!so needless to say...im not studying!!!

Beautiful Girl

Little girl, i hear you cry, every night beaneath your sheets.
And i know what you're thinking...
Little girl he knows not what he's missing...Cause all he has now is his foolishness.
And as the distance between us disappears ...i see it ever so clear..
Love doesnt hurt darling, it bruises!
Little girl you're drowning and i feel it now....
He hasn't won sugar, he loses!
And girl you've got me so wrapped up,so tangled and yet so sure!
Beautiful girl , i need you now liek i needed you then and all you see is my shadow.
Beautiful girl wont you see, see what's in it for me ,see what's in it for you,
Beautiful girl........ohh.....my beautiful girl....

p.s that was sooo random, for the first time i didnt think of anyone while writing that....but im sure..someone somewhere will relate to it and thats what i write for:)

ice princess

I am moving through the crowd ,Trying to find myself feel like a guitar that's never played. Will someone strum away? And I ask myself who do I want to be, do I want throw away the key and invent a whole new me? And I tell myself No one No one Don't want to be no one but me!! You are moving through the crowd ,Trying to find yourself feeling like a doll left on a shelf Will someone take you down? And you ask yourself who do I want to be, Do i want to throw away the key and invent a whole new me? You've got to tell yourself No one but me! Your life plays out on the shadows of the wall You turn the light out to erase it all .You wonder what it's like to not feel worthless.. So open all the blinds and draw the curtains No one No one Don't want to be no one but me You were moving through the crowd .... Hmmm ,i just happened to read the lyrics of this song which is an ost from Ice princess.And as usual, my mind had to force me to get all melodramatic about the song and Again the song seemed to fit my mood like a glove!!you know what im talking about!!c'mon don't tell me your eyes have never gone wide in amusement realizing that the singer knows exactly what's on your mind!!the fact is you're never the only one!Every one of us hits a dead end after a long and enjoyable ride,either that or you just run outta fuel!So either you turn around and take a WHOLE NEW way or you re fuel yourself! sometimes i wonder if people reading my stuff even get what im trying to say..because im a self absobed writer, i rarely stop to think of what peopel might interpret this as.All i know is i start off with a vision of reaching out to someone somewhere, but somewhere in the process of writing my thoughts evolve into things that tickle my brain cells and send me away into another realm!(see what i mean!!,from fuel to fantasy!!) lalalala, and so im gonna go now!!!mwahhhh

Summer kisses Winter tears!

Nah! Just kidding..its only a song:)but seriously...winter is a paradoxical feeling for me, always has been.On one side theres the AWESOME weather which makes me feel like i could just flyyyyyy..and at the same time my wings feel like theyre being plucked out of my very self!.What i mean is...the chilly breeze hitting against my skin just makes me feel like im in love*ahem**wink* ,every breath of icy wind on my fingertips makes me wanna lace my hands with his.And then at the same time the same wind pricks me so hard,that i wake from my sweet slumber and reluctantly embrace the painful reality!Ouch!What a price to pay for fantasy..*sigh*
But you know whats strange..(or maybe not)is that those everyday little smiles, the little gestures,or even just the minutest of seconds spent together fill me up with warmth enough to supress those evil shivers down my spine that just scream pessimism!!I know theres a way to reach my desire, a way thats built on the path of Hope but theres' an obstacle as always.I m Human!! I walk on a road based on what i think is Right and "right" isnt always "being happy with it".
And Sitting by the window, feeling the hypnotic wind on my face and the breeze caress my hair,counting every little goosebump as a reason to keep on loving, makes me reassure my self that winter is a Season worth its component of negative thoughts because every memory i make in winter gives me motivation to smile even more!
Every time i lose hope in "Waiting",u regain it for me...am i being blind or issit mere cautiousness?Am i just too stupid to realise whether u Are saying exactly what i want to hear???Am i just imagining it all...or do you really make me feel like the world stops spinning every time we're together?*sigh*All i want now is clarity and visibilty from the stagnant fog in my mind!Ahh the paradoixal winter!!You've got to love it!!